I was trying to be like Lana Del Ray with summertime sadness but if I have to explain it, it clearly didn’t work.
But hello! Long time no talk! I haven’t felt the need, since receiving medication again. But alas. I have returned, and instead of regular depression, it’s seasonal depression.
Now, I feel silly. All my life, since I can remember, I’ve been depressed. I’ve known something was off. But every August when I tried to restart my life and better myself, and every October when my depression was worse than ever, I never realized it was S.A.D.
But honestly, it all makes sense. I’m fine February/March- September. My anti-depressants do their job, I feel human, I can get out of bed. Then all of a sudden, the skies get grey, the days get shorter, and I get so overwhelmingly depressed that I can’t even leave my bed. This was, during college, when my grades would drop, when I’d call out sick from work, and avoided going to class for weeks on end. Currently, it’s making me rethink everything. “Should I quit my job?” “Does anyone like me or are they pretending?” “Do I really want to work in psychology?” The answer is, calm down Hannah, it’s going to be okay, your brain is lying to you.
Now that I know WHY I’m sad, I can try and fight it. I asked on instagram tips and tricks that others use to help them. Many recommended vitamins and other supplements, but then I was told that those can affect my SSRIs. Other’s tried exercise, which if you have depression and have been told this a million times, you know it’s not that easy.
However, I did receive some advice that I’ve been trying to practice. One was to take vitamin C and D. So I’ve been drinking Emergen-C with Vitamin D everyday, which is nice because I work with kids and I need that immune system boost anyways. And the other was some super bright light. I haven’t purchased that because I’m super broke, but I have been making sure I’m not sitting in the dark, like, ever. Lights are always on, windows are open if it’s sunny out, to try and imitate a sunny day. I’ve also tried to do a bit more than sit on my butt and watch TV. Like coloring books, podcasts, audio books, long baths. Anything that’s a little different from my routine.
So far, I feel okay. It’s been a week since I’ve taken these tips into account though so it’s hard to say. I want to try to incorporate exercise into my morning routine now since I’m currently feeling okay, but waking up at 5 is damn near impossible for me.
But that’s whats been going on with me. If anyone has any other tips or tricks they use, I’d love to hear them.
Take care my friends!